In March I went to the Grand Canyon for the first time.
Seeing the Grand Canyon is kind of like standing before God. We call it
mind-blowing, because it makes us realize just how little of existence we can
actually see and understand. It reminds us that we are small. That’s one of the things I love
about nature, and God- that feeling of smallness.
God has been doing some amazing things lately, things that
make me feel like I’m standing on the edge of the Grand Canyon. I can’t even
claim to have mustard seed-sized faith, but He is so faithful that my mind is
blown again and again.
I have wanted to go back to Haiti for a while and for various
reasons felt unable to move forward. Sometimes God speaks in an instant, but
sometimes He speaks over weeks and weeks of experiences and conversations with
people. Through the latter I felt like He was moving me towards Haiti over the
last few months and was really trying to believe Him for that. My small group
prayed with me a month ago that God would make a way for me to go back to
Haiti. I listened, and then kept worrying about money and things…
A few days later, in the course of a conversation, a man I
had just met was offering to sponsor my trip back to Haiti through his internet
marketing company and asking me to blog about my experiences for them! God
spoke then in an instant, of His faithfulness to His promise, of His love for
me, of His plan and story unfolding.
So here I am, standing on the edge of His Greatness-
mind-blown, feeling delighted by my smallness, steamrolled by his faithfulness
once again. In Ephesians Paul describes God as “Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we
ask or think.” This experience has reminded me so acutely how true that is. No
matter how my faith grows, I know that I will be joyfully surprised by Him for
endless eternity.
This time next week I will be back in Port-au-Prince. I know
that I will struggle and cry and feel crushed by the brokenness. I will fail
and fall short. I will get tired and cranky. But I also know that I will look
on my Grand Canyon God as He does many marvelous works and I will stand in
awesome wonder as He makes me small.
